Cosmic Report: What's a "Big Three Signature?"
It's your cosmic blueprint! A map to help you understand how you are connected to our solar system. Here, read about mine in this story of hard lessons learned.
Sharing a lesson I had to learn the hard way from, as a result of faltering mental health.
Hello my name is Audra and this is my “Big Three”:
12th house Cancer ♋️ ☀️Sun
9th house Aries ♈️ 🌚 Moon
1st house Leo ♌️ ⬆️ Ascendant (rising)
Our astrological cosmic blueprint includes our Sun, Moon and Ascendant signs. These “Big Three” placements give a base representation of your character’s most prevailing strengths, and areas of improvement.
“What’s your Big Three!?!”
This is a topic I’ve spent much time explaining to others, which subject matter has dominated many social interactions I’ve had over these last years. Apparently the discussion of astrology in these current times is of growing interest due to ongoing bazaar events that we continue to experience all over the world.
Great, I managed to turn a weird, creepy hobby I never felt confident to discuss publicly into a career. But, I’ve also lost some contacts along the way.
Sadly, astrology falls into the category of pseudosciences and indeed, I’ve been shamed for my spiritual beliefs. Especially ones that grant me free invitations to the bowels of hell for having beliefs in metaphysical sciences. By now, I’m salty and crusty enough to accept my enemies for what value they do offer. Or what projections they continue to illuminate.
Fortunately, this doesn’t stop my ambition to use metaphysical sciences within my personal consultations, and teachings in promoting self-awareness and mindfulness.
I will write about my own astro journey in totality another time. For now, it is only important to know that astrology can be a creative resource with which to study human psychology with.
I look to Carl Jung for continual inspiration, who brought us the idea of studying archetype representations and depictions of the our shadow side behind our personalities, but he too was met with restrictions from the basis of his spiritual and metaphysical beliefs that couldn’t scientifically be proven.
“The famous psychoanalyst Carl Jung had an interest in astrology but also critiqued it. He saw astrology as no more than a projection of the psyche, where the position of the planets and stars reflect the inner workings of the mind and the collective unconscious. Jung believed that astrological symbols and archetypes could be used to understand human behavioural patterns and the unconscious.”
For me, a self-study of astrology has replaced two decades of various therapies, and reduced my need for big-pharma medicines. It has also supported me with FREE study groups, and access to a global community. Overall, I have been able to identify my compulsion to wanting to feel pain and suffering, for myself and others. And further, to pinpoint the why that is. For those finding me here that too struggle with pre-assigned 12th house placements - I see you. I hear you. I feel you.
Had my parents had this resources in my youth to offer, my life would have been tremendously different in terms of how I spent these last decades managing my mental health. I think as a parent, that is my biggest positive take-away from this study.
Sharing a hard lesson learned
Shortly after moving into my nearly 200 year old-new home, I fell into a delicate state with my own mental health. I spent six weeks in a lowly depressive mindset, which I blamed on heavy, dense energy that didn’t feel ‘welcoming’ in my new home.
After calling upon the Old Gods and the New Gods, and some help from my psychologist, I was able to climb out of a void. Though during this period, I did harm to SELF, and OTHERS, when I hired a contractor to add a few home renovations.
The learnings were huge for me and this story continues giving a quick interpretation on how I settled this matter embodying astrological tactics I was learning at the time with mentors, and self-study.
It took some time in reflection and forgiveness, but in the end I was able to swallow the fact I had lost EUR 10k over a really bad emotional mistake. I had to eventually come to terms with the fact I was taken advantage of by yet another broken man, churned out by a broken society.
The below highlights a story told as a ‘learnior’. This term I’ve recently learned from my first writing coach, Jo Parfitt, who inspired me to think of a memoir, but one offering a moment to learn from.
I found this inspiring in place of just reading someone else’s trauma dump. Often, reading memoirs can be triggering for many.
Here’s what happened:
I hired a guy I randomly found online and didn’t do background checks. Yes, this was stupid. I was overwhelmed at the time and took shortcuts. It was a heavy year and my mental health was not strong at the time.
I needed some upgrades to my bathroom, and a new closet was to be designed, then built, in my bedroom. I had very little emotional attachment to this project and just wanted it done quickly, which this person promised to deliver by a specific time frame.
After moving out (planned for a week), for him to complete the job, and having pre-paid for the new inventory and supplies, he stopped replying to my texts within 24 hours. I re-entered my home to find he was missing, along with my inventory I had pre-paid for and had delivered.
Of course I called the police…
Turns out he was a conman who had violated other single moms in the area, based on false services he was offering. He never actually did the work, rather posting fake pictures of other people’s work online as promotion. The police told me he was sitting in the local jail, being held with multiple charges.
In the end, I was involved in a messy scheme where the police ominously foretold I wouldn’t see my return of investment. Lowering my tail to put in between my legs, I accepted that as my truth quickly. This allowed me to get smart about a plan to earn my money back as quickly as I could.
This is not something I am proud of.
This situation disrupted my children’s lives, and impacted my mental health. It was a slap-in-the-face moment, where I was able to pull myself out of a depressive episode and make immediate changes to rectify the situation.
It was a necessary evil for my ego to learn from this ignorant mistake of trusting the wrong person. Even when I chose him to do the work, I had a bad feeling and knew something was off. But I was so tired at that point in life, feeling largely supported and disconnected from others, I stopped caring and made the wrong decision. I was THAT desperate.
I lacked structure, routine and discipline post moving into a new home, and to a new city. My usually strong leadership and delegation qualities were shot to sh*t by cloudy grey thoughts that took some time to clear.
The upside is this incident forced me to complete renovations in another manner. Another topic I shall write about sometime… 🏡
But, yeah…it still hurts to think about …
Sometimes it takes incredibly tough lessons in order to keep learning. As a late bloomer, I’m okay with accepting defeat and starting over again. And again. And again.
Often this feels like Bill Murray in Groundhog Day. Although having seen this movie multiple times in my youth, it was only in adulthood that I was able to catch the hidden messages and see a different version of the movie.
How my ‘Big Three Signature’ played a role in this story:
12th house Cancer Sun ♋️ ☀️
The guy I hired was a drug addict and alcoholic. As this is a part of my own story too, I allowed for him to overstep my boundaries and took it upon myself to offer him work 🙄 . I felt sorry for him, feeling like it was a moment to give back to a person who was struggling. I was misguided, tired, and desperate - obviously.
Cancer Suns are always willing to give the shell off their own back to help others in need. Boundaries are difficult for those who are very watery in nature. A 12th house Sun placement is going to be compelled in caregiving or nurturing roles. The 12th house in astrology can represent where people find pleasure in being of service to others.
Water signs can also be prone to mental ailments, such as depression. They are highly empathic, sensitive, intuitive, and have an easier ability to access their own metaphysical gifts. Overall, Cancers easily absorb the energy of others which allows for problems of a collective audience to drag us down. I cried a lot, but the lesson was learned.
9th house Aries Moon ♈️ 🌚
Being able to cut emotional losses and move on quickly represents big Aries Moon energy.
The required actions driven by my emotional ambition to fix this situation were fiery 🔥 transformative. Mind you, I WAS PISSED AND WISHED THIS MAN MUCH HARM, but the good side of Aries energy is that anger diffuses quickly, leaving us to move onto the next drama to sort out.
Indeed I was butt-hurt that I was taken advantage of, and was reminiscent of past times I had put myself into such positions of vulnerability. Much trauma from my past was brought to surface, yet I was able to use therapy to sort out symptoms quickly evading any PTSD situation.
The police were NOT helpful in any regards, and this offender remains pure trash for what he has done to single moms. “I wish him the life he deserves to have” says my Aries Moon.
1st house Leo (Ascendant) ♌️ ⬆️
My Leo Rising placement means it’s an honour and privilege to offer this story willingly. I aspire to share vulnerability in hopes of a fair warning served to others. With Leo taking place in my first house within my natal chart, this is where I’m easily found by an audience.
I am seen by others to be confident and intelligent. Neither of these words do I define myself by leaving me thinking I’m just really good at acting; perhaps missing my calling in life.
Often “fake it, until you make it” was my motto to live by, until I realised this mindset brings a life of fateful occurrences that led to more chaos.
We can be, strong, leading with qualities that inspire others, but we are also allowed our shit moments to make shitty human mistakes. And we are allowed time to rest. Our mental health is our physical health, and often for many spiritual health is important. We simply are not able to prioritise any aspect of our health if our minds are too full of distractions.
As a traditional Leo Ascendant holder who appreciates a spotlight and various attention-seeking behaviours (with boundaries applied), I’m happy to put forth my own Cowardly Lion, and take this moment of exploitation for a worthy cause.
Do you know your Big Three Signature?
Did you know understanding your cosmic blueprints leads to heightened self-awareness, while strengthening our relationship with our intuition?
Would you like to learn more about how this can apply to your own personality?
Great awakenings come when you realise that not everyone cares to change. And that’s their journey. - An Evolved Cancer
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